2019; Just Another Heart Breaking Year

Hi, lets start with that. So I know, I haven't writing anything for this past few months. It's just that, there are so many things came up this past few months. But lets not talk about it. 

It seems like things will never get better, and it feels like I was stuck in my current situation. Life has seemed like more of a battle than a blessing lately, and every time I finally seem to make a breakthrough, life only seems to knock me back down, again.

These are the days that can either destroy or define us, and it's up to you to decide which path to take. 

And I hope what ever happen to you, don't let it destroy you. I hope you get back up every time the world expects you to just give up and stay stationary. I hope you never feel like you won't get any further than you are right now because you have no idea how much more you will grow in just a few short years. 

But right now, I knew what I need to do but I don't know if I was strong enough to do it. I need to 'let go' of what ever that holding me back; things, place, people. I need to 'let go' everything that doesn't meant to stay to make room for the things that truly want to stay. 

And it ain't easy. I guess, I'm still trying to learn, where to begin. 

Love? No right or wrong answer

It's been a while, I know right. So, I finish my study just a few weeks ago and will be having my intern very soon. I hope I'll be having more times to write after this. So, as I'm really bored and lonely spending time all by myself at home, I was thinking to write something on here. So here I am. This is just a random thought and I just think I need to jot this down.

What is love? 
We hear this word almost everyday. But what does it actually means? There's no right or wrong answer, of course. It's up to you to define it.

Are your palms sweaty, is your heart racing, is your voice caught within your chest? That isn’t love, that’s just lust. Are you proud and eager to show them off? That isn’t love, it’s pride. 

Do you want them because you know they’re there? That isn’t love, it’s loneliness. Are you there because it’s what everyone wants? That isn’t love, it’s loyalty. Are you there because they kissed you or held your hand? That isn’t love, it’s low self esteem. 

Do you stay for their confessions of love because you don’t want to hurt them? That isn’t love, it’s pity. Do you belong to them because when you see them your heart skips a beat? That isn’t love, it’s infatuation. 

Do you pardon their faults because you care about them? That isn’t love, it’s friendship. Do you tell them every day that they’re the only one you think of? That isn’t love, that’s a lie. Are you willing to give up your favorite things for their sake? That isn’t love, it’s charity. 

Does your heart break when they’re sad? That’s love. Do their eyes see your true heart, and touch your soul so deeply it hurts? That’s love. Do you stay because a blinding, incomprehensible mix of pain and relation pulls you close, and holds you there? That’s love. Do you accept their faults, because it’s part of who we are? That’s love. Are you attached to others but stay with your love, without regret? That’s love. 

Would you give them your heart, your life, your death? Does 'Love' really have a power like that? A power over you? Think.

Time pass by

It will pass. It will get easier. The fact that it will get easier doesn't mean that it won't hurt now. And when people try to minimize your pain they are doing you a disservice. Don't do that. The truth is that it hurts because it's real. It hurts because it mattered. And that's an important thing to acknowledge to yourself. But that doesn't mean that it won't end, that it won't get better. Because it will. - John Green

2015, Here We Go !

It's been a year and 2014 came to an end. yeah. It was but It is not the end of the world. It is just a beginning of something new. I don't know what. A beginning of something good or vice versa. 

So lets take a look on what happened in 2014, what we have been searching for through the year. I bet 2014, is the most remarkable year for everyone. 

Each and everyone of us have fighting to survive, because I know that life in this real world is never been easy. Sometimes, we found love along the journey but then we never thought that we have to lose it. Some found hope and courage to begin again. But for most of us, it always have been a lost. A lost of something or someone and there are no words can mend what is broken. 

For this new year, I wish to all of us may this new year remark a new beginning and may we found what we always looking for. Most of it, I wish all of us may we found 'LOVE' in each other. 

Free

There's good music..

And then there's music that reaches deep into your souls and calls you to action and makes you want to scream the lyrics from a rooftop and run around in circles and kiss people and spread kindness to the world and gives you this huge burst of energy and just makes you want to become a cool person. And that's when you know you've set yourself free.. 

Because I've been thinking.. I think the hardest part of losing someone you love, isn't having to say goodbye but rather learning to live without them. Always trying to fill the void, the emptiness that's left inside your heart when they finally walk away from your life..

The path..

''I am sure God keeps no one waiting unless He sees that it is good for her to wait.''

Remarkable thing

“And then I felt sad because I realized that once people are broken in certain ways, they can't ever be fixed, and this is something nobody ever tells you when you are young and it never fails to surprise you as you grow older as you see the people in your life break one by one. You wonder when your turn is going to be, or if it's already happened.” - Unknown 

Most things are forgotten over time. Even the war itself, the life-and-death struggle people went through is now like something from the distant past. We’re so caught up in our everyday lives that events of the past are no longer in orbit around our minds. There are just too many things we have to think about everyday, too many new things we have to learn. But still, no matter how much time passes, no matter what takes place in the interim, there are some things we can never assign to oblivion, memories we can never rub away. They remain with us forever, like a touchstone, like a tattoo, leave a scars in your heart.

You are 'somebody'..

Before you know it it’s 3 am and you’re 80 years old and you can’t remember what it was like to have 20 year old thoughts or a 10 year old heart, trust that you are as important as everybody. You are 'somebody' and you are 'matter'. Remember that there are two important days in your life; the day you were born and the day that you discover 'why'. 

One day, you realise that there are some people you’ll never see again. At least, not in the same way.

I Love you, Mom

LETTER FROM A MOTHER TO A DAUGHTER:

"My dear girl, the day you see I’m getting old, I ask you to please be patient, but most of all, try to understand what I’m going through.

If when we talk, I repeat the same thing a thousand times, don’t interrupt to say: “You said the same thing a minute ago”... Just listen, please. Try to remember the times when you were little and I would read the same storynight after night until you would fall asleep.

When I don’t want to take a bath, don’t be mad and don’t embarrass me. Remember when I had to run after you making excuses and trying to get you to take a shower when you were just a girl?

When you see how ignorant I am when it comes to new technology, give me the time to learn and don’t look at me that way... remember, honey, I patiently taught you how to do many things like eating appropriately, getting dressed, combing your hair and dealing with life’s issues every day... the day you see I’m getting old, I ask you to please be patient, but most of all, try to understand what I’m going through.

If I occasionally lose track of what we’re talking about, give me the time to remember, and if I can’t, don’t be nervous, impatient or arrogant. Just know in your heart that the most important thing for me is to be with you.

And when my old, tired legs don’t let me move as quickly as before, give me your hand the same way that I offered mine to you when you first walked.

When those days come, don’t feel sad... just be with me, and understand me while I get to the end of my life with love.

I’ll cherish and thank you for the gift of time and joy we shared. With a big smile and the huge love I’ve always had for you, I just want to say, I love you... my darling daughter."

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It feels so good..

 

Sometimes you need to remind yourself that you were the one who carried you through the heartache. You are the one who sits with the cold body on the shower floor, and picks it up. You are the one who feeds it, who clothes it, who tucks it into bed, and you should be proud of that. Having the strength to take care of yourself when everyone around you is trying to bleed you dry, that is the strongest thing in the universe.

because..

Girls don’t give up easily. Girls fight until they still can even if they know they’re about to lose. When girls love, they usually love wholeheartedly. Even if they’re afraid, they still take risks. Even if it they’re hurting, nobody can stop them from loving. And sometimes, girls only wanted guys to do the same thing. 

Welcome September..

''Everything passes. Everything changes. Just do what you think you should do.''

It's been a while, right? How's life? hm, well for me it's never been easy, yeah. It's September already and everything has changed. And life goes on. Some people accidentally walk on my feet and apologize, while others walk all over my heart and don't even realize. 

Imagine Dragons

Lately, I've been sneaking around and indirectly hear their music. I think I fall in love with their music. I think their music is great and this is the kind of music I love to hear. Imagine Dragons, this band really get my attention. One of my favourite song is Radioactive and also Demons, really get through my soul. 

Imagine Dragons are a Las Vegas-based American alternative rock, or indie pop/rock band. They gained exposure after the release of their debut studio album, Night Visions, in September 2012. 

Since then, they have gone on a world tour, and gained exposure on major late night shows like The Tonight Show with Jay Leno, Jimmy Kimmel Live! and Late Night with Jimmy Fallon. Billboard magazine named them "The Breakthrough Band of 2013", and Rolling Stone magazine called their single "Radioactive" "the biggest rock hit of the year."  

Dan Reynolds

Current members

• Dan Reynolds - Vocals, Percussion, Guitar (2008–present)
• Ben McKee - Bass, Backing Vocals, Keyboards (2009–present)
• Wayne "Wing" Sermon - Guitar, Cello, Backing Vocals (2009–present)
• Dan Platzman - Drums, Viola, Backing Vocals (2011–present)
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Former members

• Andrew Tolman - Drums, Vocals (2008–2011)
• Brittany Tolman - Piano, Vocals (2009–2011)
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Touring members

• Theresa Flaminio - Piano, Vocals (2011–2012)
• Ryan Walker - Keyboards, Guitar, Percussions & Vocals (2011–present)

Studio albums

• Night Visions (2012)
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Extended plays

• Imagine Dragons (2009)
• Hell and Silence (2010)
• It's Time (2011)
• Continued Silence (2012)
• Hear Me (2012)
• The Archive (2013)
• iTunes Session (2013)

Our good traits are on our backs..

“I think confidence makes someone beautiful. I think a sense of humour and I don’t know.. it’s really cliche but being a good person and not keeping secrets and little things like that. Just being a good person, a good friend. Cause you’ll realize as you get older, physical stuff matters so much less than you think it does when you’re young. It just doesn’t matter.”

—	Elizabeth Gillies

“To wish you were someone else is to waste the person you are.”— Kurt Cobain

Hipster: How to dress like Hipster.

Okayy, lately I think I fall in love with Hipster style and somehow makes me want to learn how to dress like Hipster. A hipster refers to a young teen in the 1990's. This culture is mainly associated with varied non-mainstream fashion sensibility.

Hipster Fashion. How to dress like a Hipster: 

1. Wear skinny jeans. The classic "skinny jeans" make the hipster look, both for males and females. Hipster men tend to be as skinny as the women. 

• Basically, the tighter, the better.
• Note that guy hipsters actually probably wear skinny jeans more than the girls (girls prefer leggings/jeggings/treggings).
• Alternatively, for women, high-wasted pants (a.k.a. "mom jeans") may also be worn.

2. Wear glasess. Hipsters love ironic eye wear such as shutter shades, oversized plastic framed glasses, Buddy Holly glasses, nerd glasses, and — for those who can afford it — authentic Ray Ban Wayfarers of all the colors of the rainbow. 

3. Dress vintage. Dresses are good for women, preferably vintage floral or lace. Granny's closet is definitely a good source; however, you should know how to sew and restyle vintage clothing to fit you.

4. Find suitable footwear. Hipster shoes include cowboy boots, Converse, and a range of flats. 

• Converses are no longer universal. They look great and you can wear them pretty much anywhere, but since everyone wears them, Doc Martens or any other vintage shoes are better.
• If it's trainers you're after, see Classic Reeboks.
• For girls, heels aren't the most popular but feel free to wear them. Cute sandals, Keds, boots, and granny boots are not only more practical but also show how little effort you've put forth (even if it took you ages to find the perfect pair).

5. Accessorize. There is a wide range of accessories, including large flower headbands, neon nail polish, pins, bright belts, bird necklaces, patterned and colorful leggings, etc. 

• Don't forget your plugs, piercings, and random scars supposedly acquired through woodwork and other carpenter-like endeavors.
• Appropriately ironic accessories are mandatory, such as things kids would take to school, like an animal image on a lunchbox.
• Essentials include a courier bag (not a backpack), preferably something from Freitag, that can fit your MacBook, iPhone, and vinyl LPs (never CDs) of your current favorite band.

Life is art.

“I think everything in life is art. What you do. How you dress. The way you love someone, and how you talk. Your smile and your personality. What you believe in, and all your dreams. The way you drink your tea. How you decorate your home. Or party. Your grocery list. The food you make. How your writing looks. And the way you feel. Life is art.”

—	Helena Bonham Carter

Just for sharing.

So I've been wandering around in Tumblr and I found this. Its really get my attention. So I decided to share this wonderful knowledge with all of you here. I guess it's really true. sometimes the most innocent children, have answers the most complicated of questions.

We waste so many days waiting for weekend. So many nights wanting morning. Our lust for future comfort is the biggest thief of life. Why we can't be just like the dog who learn to live a good life and being nice and love everybody. Yess, because we're human. After all, we're still a human. 

Remembering The Glee Star; Cory Monteith

Yeah, everyone love him and he has been well known by his role in Glee as Finn Hudson, he is Cory Monteith who win everybody's heart by his amazing act. I still can't believe that he already gone. That news was really shocking especially to all Glee's fans. Surely, Glee will never be the same without him in the show. He is such a talented actor and singer and yes, he is really a good-looking guy :D Lets take this moment to remember all his effort to make all Glee's fans having such a good memory  and a good inspiration while watching Glee. This show definitely change my point of view about 'Life'. Thank You! Rest in peace, Finn :')





According to (CNN) -- Cory Monteith, who played heart throb Finn Hudson in the Fox hit "Glee," was found dead in a Vancouver hotel room on Saturday, police said. He was 31. 

Police said the cause of death was not immediately apparent, but they ruled out foul play.

Medical examiners will conduct an autopsy on Monday.

Monteith's body was discovered by staff members at the Fairmont Pacific Rim Hotel after he missed his checkout time, acting Chief Constable Doug LePard told reporters.

Monteith apparently had several people over to his room at one point Friday night, but LePard said Monteith, who had checked in July 6, was seen on hotel surveillance video returning to his room in the early morning hours by himself.

More info at Cory Monteith Found Death

Trust that you are enough..

“Stop comparing where you’re at with where everyone else is. It doesn’t move you farther ahead, improve your situation, or help you find peace. It just feeds your shame, fuels your feelings of inadequacy, and ultimately, it keeps you stuck. The reality is that there is no one correct path in life. Everyone has their own unique journey. A path that’s right for someone else won’t necessarily be a path that’s right for you. And that’s okay. Your journey isn’t right or wrong, or good or bad. It’s just different. Your life isn’t meant to look like anyone else’s because you aren’t like anyone else. You’re a person all your own with a unique set of goals, obstacles, dreams, and needs. So stop comparing, and start living. You may not have ended up where you intended to go. But trust, for once, that you have ended up where you needed to be. Trust that you are in the right place at the right time. Trust that your life is enough. Trust that you are enough.”

—	Daniell Koepke

Being human..

You want to be a normal human? What do you think that is? We don't have powers to just change things whenever we like. Being human is feeling bad. It's feeling pissed off. It's feeling scared and not being able to do anything about it until you don't feel that way any more, until you can just see your way out of it.

~Ethan, Beautiful Creatures

So, what is the true meaning of being a 'human'? Being human is not only about how we feel about ourself; being pretty, being happy, being loved, or having everything this world could offer you. It's not about all this things. 

Sometimes, being human is about to feel the vulnerability and feel weak. It's about feeling the fear. Fear of aging, fear of loneliness, fear of poverty, fear of failure. Because fear is the most basic emotion we have. Being human is about feeling all of this kind of emotion at the same time. It's not easy, but we have to live it. It's don't have to be perfect. As long as we appreciate life, we'll doing fine. I guess being a 'Human' is not as bad as 'WE', everyone of us could ever imagine. 

Give life a meaning..

There comes a time in life when you have to accept and move on, hope and never look back, smile and forget the pain and most importantly, love and let go.