The path..

''I am sure God keeps no one waiting unless He sees that it is good for her to wait.''

Remarkable thing

“And then I felt sad because I realized that once people are broken in certain ways, they can't ever be fixed, and this is something nobody ever tells you when you are young and it never fails to surprise you as you grow older as you see the people in your life break one by one. You wonder when your turn is going to be, or if it's already happened.” - Unknown 

Most things are forgotten over time. Even the war itself, the life-and-death struggle people went through is now like something from the distant past. We’re so caught up in our everyday lives that events of the past are no longer in orbit around our minds. There are just too many things we have to think about everyday, too many new things we have to learn. But still, no matter how much time passes, no matter what takes place in the interim, there are some things we can never assign to oblivion, memories we can never rub away. They remain with us forever, like a touchstone, like a tattoo, leave a scars in your heart.

The feeling..

It's been a while. Just a month away before 2013 ends and Christmas is just around the corner. Definitely the most beautiful time of the year, my favourite. 

November went so fast before I realize it. Today is a 'Thanksgiving Day' and surely there's a lot to thanks for. Too many things and I can't remember most of it. I just hope life would be so much easier. Well, it's never been. It's hard and it always be. 

I try to forget. yeah, I'm still trying, after all this time. It's such a pain to see someone you love and knowing that you have to let go off the feeling because it's never meant to be. You're hoping that someday, when you see him again there's nothing you rather do than just to smile at the person again because the feeling was all gone. I'm waiting for that day.

But it hard. Forgetting is hard.

I don't know if you've ever had one of those days where you'd rather hit by a train then take another breath or not get out of bed because you've forgotten how to love or how to be loved. Where each step is like a war zone not wanting to go on but knowing you have to. I don't know if you've ever had one of those days but I hope you never do. 

The worst thing is that I don't even know why the hell I still feel all this pain inside. 

Let the rain wash away all the pain of yesterday..

Guarded..

''I’m attracted to the extreme light and the extreme dark. I’m interested in the human condition and what makes people tick. I’m interested in the things people try to hide.'' ~ Johnny Deep 

Sorry. I'm just too scared to touch happiness only to have it taken away again..

Maybe that is why I try to hide my feelings and I push everyone away and maybe that is why I'm so guarded..

And it is hard to trust people..

To trust is sometimes to surrender..

Skinny Love: The Meaning

There are two ways to define 'Skinny Love', but both talk about romantic relationships. 

The first is used to describe a type of relationship between two people that are very in love with each other, or are crushing big time on the other; but are far too embarrassed to express their feelings. The relationship is 'skinny' because they have yet to come out and explain their true feelings. There is no communication, there for it's not even really a 'relationship'. 

The second is to describe a similar thing, but instead of no communication, the relationship lacks love. It is where two people are dating just for the sake of dating, the sake of being with someone. To fill that empty void, to give them something to do. They do not actually love each other.

You are 'somebody'..

Before you know it it’s 3 am and you’re 80 years old and you can’t remember what it was like to have 20 year old thoughts or a 10 year old heart, trust that you are as important as everybody. You are 'somebody' and you are 'matter'. Remember that there are two important days in your life; the day you were born and the day that you discover 'why'. 

One day, you realise that there are some people you’ll never see again. At least, not in the same way.

I Love you, Mom

LETTER FROM A MOTHER TO A DAUGHTER:

"My dear girl, the day you see I’m getting old, I ask you to please be patient, but most of all, try to understand what I’m going through.

If when we talk, I repeat the same thing a thousand times, don’t interrupt to say: “You said the same thing a minute ago”... Just listen, please. Try to remember the times when you were little and I would read the same storynight after night until you would fall asleep.

When I don’t want to take a bath, don’t be mad and don’t embarrass me. Remember when I had to run after you making excuses and trying to get you to take a shower when you were just a girl?

When you see how ignorant I am when it comes to new technology, give me the time to learn and don’t look at me that way... remember, honey, I patiently taught you how to do many things like eating appropriately, getting dressed, combing your hair and dealing with life’s issues every day... the day you see I’m getting old, I ask you to please be patient, but most of all, try to understand what I’m going through.

If I occasionally lose track of what we’re talking about, give me the time to remember, and if I can’t, don’t be nervous, impatient or arrogant. Just know in your heart that the most important thing for me is to be with you.

And when my old, tired legs don’t let me move as quickly as before, give me your hand the same way that I offered mine to you when you first walked.

When those days come, don’t feel sad... just be with me, and understand me while I get to the end of my life with love.

I’ll cherish and thank you for the gift of time and joy we shared. With a big smile and the huge love I’ve always had for you, I just want to say, I love you... my darling daughter."

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October; Wake me up

Feeling my way through the darkness. Guided by a beating heart. I can't tell where the journey will end, But I know where to start. 

They tell me I'm too young to understand. They say I'm caught up in a dream. Well life will pass me by if I don't open up my eyes. Well that's fine by me. 

So wake me up when it's all over. When I'm wiser and I'm older. All this time I was finding myself. And I didn't know I was lost..

I tried carrying the weight of the world. But I only have two hands. Hope I get the chance to travel the world. But I don't have any plans.

Wish that I could stay forever this young. Not afraid to close my eyes. Life's a game made for everyone. And love is the prize..

I know, nice words urgh.. It's a song by Avicii, Wake me up. I love the song, it's carried a deep meaning. Only certain people will understand it. hm, anyway I still can't believe that it's October already. 2013 is half over, just like that. I wish I could treasure the moment I have, but I didn't. I guess I have to open my eyes because life will pass me by if I don't open up my eyes.

Welcome September..

''Everything passes. Everything changes. Just do what you think you should do.''

It's been a while, right? How's life? hm, well for me it's never been easy, yeah. It's September already and everything has changed. And life goes on. Some people accidentally walk on my feet and apologize, while others walk all over my heart and don't even realize. 

Our good traits are on our backs..

“I think confidence makes someone beautiful. I think a sense of humour and I don’t know.. it’s really cliche but being a good person and not keeping secrets and little things like that. Just being a good person, a good friend. Cause you’ll realize as you get older, physical stuff matters so much less than you think it does when you’re young. It just doesn’t matter.”

—	Elizabeth Gillies

“To wish you were someone else is to waste the person you are.”— Kurt Cobain

Life is art.

“I think everything in life is art. What you do. How you dress. The way you love someone, and how you talk. Your smile and your personality. What you believe in, and all your dreams. The way you drink your tea. How you decorate your home. Or party. Your grocery list. The food you make. How your writing looks. And the way you feel. Life is art.”

—	Helena Bonham Carter

Hello July, you here again..

And I know it's long gone, And that magic's not here no more. 

And I might be okay,

But I'm not fine at all.

'Cause there we are again on that little town street. 

You almost ran the red 'cause you were looking over me. 

Wind in my hair, I was there, I remember it all too well. 

And I know it's long gone, And there was nothing else I could do. And I forget about you long enough, To forget why I needed to...

'Cause there we are again in the middle of the night. We dance around the kitchen in the refrigerator light. Down the stairs, I was there, I remember it all too well, yeah.

'' and here comes July and everything has change. yeah, maybe I guess all the right path is not always the easiest one''.. 

Forgiveness..

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When you're forgiving but you can't forget, feels like you're drowning but you still got breath.. 

“I can forgive, but I cannot forget, is only another way of saying, I will not forgive. Forgiveness ought to be like a cancelled note — torn in two, and burned up, so that it never can be shown against one. 

-Henry Ward Beecher ”

Forgiveness..

Forgiving, is for YOU, not the other person. It places the blame where it belongs, on the other person.  

We forgive, so we can no longer be in bondage. We’re free to move on, despite of the wrongs that others tried to place upon us. 

Let go, Let God…

Everything has changed..

'Cause all I know is we said "Hello" And your eyes look like coming home. All I know is a simple name, Everything has changed..

All I know is you held the door. You'll be mine and I'll be yours. All I know since yesterday is everything has changed..

Give life a meaning..

There comes a time in life when you have to accept and move on, hope and never look back, smile and forget the pain and most importantly, love and let go.

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You were given this life because you're strong enough to live it, so never have any regrets because at some point everything you did was exactly what you wanted.

May, gives me some good Memories..

I've seen a better days but I also seen the worse. I don't have everything that I want but I do have all I need. I woke up with some aches and pains, but I still alive. My life may not be perfect but I'm blessed.

May this day, brings me a good life, a new started. yes. goodbye April. Hello May. Please give me some good memories, that's all I ask. 

Nostalgia..

I hope I'm not the only one

Who goes to their favourite place where so many good memories were made and it’s sunny out, the sun is setting, and you’re in such a happy, contented mood after finally being able to come to terms with the past.

and then you see something that reminds you.

That’s all it takes to break your heart again.

“In Greek, “nostalgia” literally means “the pain from an old wound”. It’s a twinge in your heart, far more powerful than memory alone. This device isn’t a spaceship, it’s a time machine. It goes backwards and forwards, it takes us to a place where we ache to go again.”

Start with your self..

'When you need something to believe in, start with your self.'

Pair of lines..

It's reminds me that somehow, everything gonna ends someday. Nothing really last forever..

I think he and me are just like that, 'meets once and then drifts away, FOREVER'..

''Sometimes, people choose to leave not because of selfish reasons. But they just know that things will get worse if they stay.''