Love? No right or wrong answer

It's been a while, I know right. So, I finish my study just a few weeks ago and will be having my intern very soon. I hope I'll be having more times to write after this. So, as I'm really bored and lonely spending time all by myself at home, I was thinking to write something on here. So here I am. This is just a random thought and I just think I need to jot this down.

What is love? 
We hear this word almost everyday. But what does it actually means? There's no right or wrong answer, of course. It's up to you to define it.

Are your palms sweaty, is your heart racing, is your voice caught within your chest? That isn’t love, that’s just lust. Are you proud and eager to show them off? That isn’t love, it’s pride. 

Do you want them because you know they’re there? That isn’t love, it’s loneliness. Are you there because it’s what everyone wants? That isn’t love, it’s loyalty. Are you there because they kissed you or held your hand? That isn’t love, it’s low self esteem. 

Do you stay for their confessions of love because you don’t want to hurt them? That isn’t love, it’s pity. Do you belong to them because when you see them your heart skips a beat? That isn’t love, it’s infatuation. 

Do you pardon their faults because you care about them? That isn’t love, it’s friendship. Do you tell them every day that they’re the only one you think of? That isn’t love, that’s a lie. Are you willing to give up your favorite things for their sake? That isn’t love, it’s charity. 

Does your heart break when they’re sad? That’s love. Do their eyes see your true heart, and touch your soul so deeply it hurts? That’s love. Do you stay because a blinding, incomprehensible mix of pain and relation pulls you close, and holds you there? That’s love. Do you accept their faults, because it’s part of who we are? That’s love. Are you attached to others but stay with your love, without regret? That’s love. 

Would you give them your heart, your life, your death? Does 'Love' really have a power like that? A power over you? Think.

Free

There's good music..

And then there's music that reaches deep into your souls and calls you to action and makes you want to scream the lyrics from a rooftop and run around in circles and kiss people and spread kindness to the world and gives you this huge burst of energy and just makes you want to become a cool person. And that's when you know you've set yourself free.. 

Because I've been thinking.. I think the hardest part of losing someone you love, isn't having to say goodbye but rather learning to live without them. Always trying to fill the void, the emptiness that's left inside your heart when they finally walk away from your life..

Say something

I don't know what am I suppose to feel right now. It's like I'm waiting for something but I don't sure what it is or if it's ever going to happen, and I'm hoping for something that I don't know what exactly it is. I leave my heart open but it stays right here empty for days, stays right here in its cage. maybe I'm waiting for someone, yeah. 'someone'. 

..Say something, I'm giving up on you. I'll be the one, if you want me to. Anywhere, I would've followed you. Say something, I'm giving up on you.

And I am feeling so small. It was over my head. I know nothing at all. And I will stumble and fall. I'm still learning to love. Just starting to crawl. And I will swallow my pride. You're the one that I love And I'm saying goodbye.

Say something, I'm giving up on you. I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you. Anywhere, I would've followed you.

Say something, I'm giving up on you.. 

Warm Bodies; He's still dead but he's getting warmer.

Gosh, after seeing this movie for the first time I think I really LOVE this Movie. It’s amazing how LOVE could change everything, even change the zombie back to human, live again. 

It took me watching this movie twice to realize that it is Romeo and Juliet but in different kind of way. yeah. I mean his name is “R" she is Julie, and her boyfriend that he killed is named Perry…like Paris, they are from opposing families…I mean I can’t believe I didn’t see it the first time.

Warm Bodies is a 2013 American paranormal romantic zombie comedy film based on Isaac Marion's novel of the same name. Directed and written by Jonathan Levine, the film stars Nicholas Hoult, Teresa Palmer and Analeigh Tipton.

After a zombie apocalypse, R, a zombie, spends his days wandering around an airport which is now filled with hordes of his fellow undead, including his best friend M. R and M achieve rudimentary communication with grunts and moans and occasional near-words. As a zombie, R constantly craves human flesh, especially brains, as he is able to "feel alive" through the victims' memories he experiences when he eats them. While R and a pack of zombies are out hunting for food, they encounter Julie Grigio and a group of her friends, who were sent out by Julie's father from a heavily-fortified, walled-off human enclave in a nearby city to recover medical supplies from abandoned buildings. 

R sees Julie and is drawn to her. After being shot in the chest by Julie's boyfriend, Perry, R kills him while Julie is distracted, and eats his brain, giving R his thoughts and memories, making his attraction to Julie even stronger. He rescues Julie from the rest of the pack and takes her back to an airplane he lives in at the airport to keep her safe. The two bond, causing R to slowly begin to come to life.^[9] After a few days, Julie gets restless, and tries multiple times to return home, yet attracts swarms of zombies every time, requiring R to rescue her. After fending off a group of zombies, including M, who is confused by R's actions, R decides it is time to return her to the human enclave.

On the way, R reveals to Julie that he was the one that killed Perry, which prompts her to abandon him and return alone to the human enclave. R begins to make his way back to the airport, heartbroken. He then sees that M and other zombies are also beginning to show signs of life, making all of them targets for the Bonies, skeletal zombies who having lost all traces of their humanity have shed their flesh, and prey on anything with a heartbeat. R and M lead a group to the human enclave, where R sneaks inside the wall. There he finds Julie and meets her friend Nora, who is initially shocked. When R reveals that the other corpses have also been coming back to life, the three of them attempt to tell Colonel Grigio, Julie's father and leader of the survivors. Colonel Grigio, however, refuses to believe corpses can change and threatens to kill R, stopping only when Nora pulls a gun on him. Julie and R escape to a baseball stadium where the rest of R's group is waiting, but find themselves under attack by a horde of Bonies.

While M and his gang of zombies square off against the Bonies, Julie and R run, but find themselves trapped. Taking the only escape route, R jumps with Julie into a pool far below, shielding her from the impact. After Julie pulls R from the bottom of the pool, they kiss passionately - causing R to become fully revived. Colonel Grigio finds them soon after, shooting R in the shoulder without warning, and when R bleeds, is finally convinced that he has returned to life. The humans and zombies combine forces and kill most of the Bonies while the rest die off, and the zombies slowly assimilate into human society. The film ends with a now fully alive R and Julie watching a wall surrounding the city being demolished, signifying the end of the apocalypse.

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Beautiful Creatures: There was a curse.There was a girl.

''I lay my head down on his chest and cried because had lived because he had died a dry ocean, a desert of emotion happy, sad, dark light, sorrow, joy, swept over me, under me. I could hear the sound but i could not understand the words and then i realized the sound was me, breaking in one moment i was feeling everything and i was feeling nothing. I was shattered, i was saved, i lost everything, i was given everything else, something in me died, something in me was born, i only knew the girl was gone. Whoever i was now, i would never be her again, this is the way the world ends not with a bang but a whimper.'' ~ Lena Duchannes

Sacrifice ~ It’s not what I’d call a modern word. People hear the word “sacrifice" and they become afraid… that something will be taken away from them. Or they’ll have to give up something they can’t live without. “Sacrifice," to them, means “loss"… in a world telling us we can have it all. But I believe true sacrifice is a victory. Because it requires our free will… to give up something or someone you love… for something or someone you love more than yourself. I won’t lie to you. It’s a gamble. Sacrifice won’t take away the pain of loss. But it wins the battle against bitterness. The bitterness that dims the light on all that is of true value in our lives.

I just saw this movie, Beautiful Creatures American romantic fantasy film based upon the novel of the same name by Kami Garcia and Margaret Stohl. The story was really interesting and I would like to read the book because they say there is a huge difference between the movie and the book itself. To those who never watch this movie, you should..

Hello July, you here again..

And I know it's long gone, And that magic's not here no more. 

And I might be okay,

But I'm not fine at all.

'Cause there we are again on that little town street. 

You almost ran the red 'cause you were looking over me. 

Wind in my hair, I was there, I remember it all too well. 

And I know it's long gone, And there was nothing else I could do. And I forget about you long enough, To forget why I needed to...

'Cause there we are again in the middle of the night. We dance around the kitchen in the refrigerator light. Down the stairs, I was there, I remember it all too well, yeah.

'' and here comes July and everything has change. yeah, maybe I guess all the right path is not always the easiest one''.. 

Darkness..

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Darkness scares us. We yearn for the comfort of light as it provides shape and form allowing us to recognize, to define what's before us. 

But what is it we're afraid of, really? Not the darkness itself, but the truth we know hides within.

You thought you wanted to die but in reality you just wanted to be saved. And it's really scares me :(

Forgiveness..

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When you're forgiving but you can't forget, feels like you're drowning but you still got breath.. 

“I can forgive, but I cannot forget, is only another way of saying, I will not forgive. Forgiveness ought to be like a cancelled note — torn in two, and burned up, so that it never can be shown against one. 

-Henry Ward Beecher ”

Forgiveness..

Forgiving, is for YOU, not the other person. It places the blame where it belongs, on the other person.  

We forgive, so we can no longer be in bondage. We’re free to move on, despite of the wrongs that others tried to place upon us. 

Let go, Let God…

Nostalgia..

I hope I'm not the only one

Who goes to their favourite place where so many good memories were made and it’s sunny out, the sun is setting, and you’re in such a happy, contented mood after finally being able to come to terms with the past.

and then you see something that reminds you.

That’s all it takes to break your heart again.

“In Greek, “nostalgia” literally means “the pain from an old wound”. It’s a twinge in your heart, far more powerful than memory alone. This device isn’t a spaceship, it’s a time machine. It goes backwards and forwards, it takes us to a place where we ache to go again.”

Start with your self..

'When you need something to believe in, start with your self.'

Pair of lines..

It's reminds me that somehow, everything gonna ends someday. Nothing really last forever..

I think he and me are just like that, 'meets once and then drifts away, FOREVER'..

''Sometimes, people choose to leave not because of selfish reasons. But they just know that things will get worse if they stay.''

The best feeling..

 

Imagine you’re sitting in a coffee shop. Or class. Just zoning out through the window, lost in your own thoughts and imagination.

Then suddenly, like the first pinprick of blood coming back to a numb limb, you realize you’re being watched. Blinking yourself out of your haze, you look around  to see if perhaps a friend had called for you. With no one getting your attention inside, you turn to look outside.

To meet the most gorgeous eyes you’ve ever seen. And he was watching you first.  yeah, he already did, and that was the best feeling.. 

Good Friday: We Remember

'We remember how you loved us, to your death and still we celebrate for you are with us here. And we believe that we will you, when you come in your glory lord, we remember, we celebrate, we believe.'

"For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish, but have eternal life.''~ John 3:16

~ We celebrating the Good Friday as a religious holiday observed primarily by Christians commemorating the crucifixion of Jesus Christ and his death at Calvary. To remember how Jesus Christ has die for our sin and how he love us till his death.

Over and over again..

A guy and a girl can be just friends, but at one point or another, they will fall for each other. . . Maybe temporarily, maybe at wrong time, maybe too late, 

or maybe forever. And for me, every time I see him, 

I can't help myself to fall in Love with him over and over again. .

I hate the feeling :(

Some Thoughts

I chose to stay with him for all the things that he did right and not leave him for one thing that he did wrong.

Getting worse

16/3/2013 - I don't know but it's been getting worse. I wonder which hurts the most. saying something and wishing you had not, or saying nothing, and wishing you had..

 

February: Month Of Love

''Sometimes love does not have the most honorable beginnings, and the endings, the endings will break you in half. It’s everything in between we live for.''

another day passing by.. everything seems so real for me now. 

and me? I've been thinking a lot lately. 

and yes, for a past few days before I've been so busy 

doing some stuff here and there. And I'm sick, I had a cold.

What's on my mind..

'And the records keep playing the old same song'. have you ever heard about this? hmm. We will never going to anywhere if we keep repeating the same old chapter. I'm broken and I'm blinded because everything I see is him. 

Never go back into an old love, no matter how strong it is, because it's like reading a book over and over again when you already know how it ends... I know I shouldn't but I did..

It's so easy to say I'm fine without him, but deep down inside, I'm hurt and I have to pretend I'm alright, smile and hold behind the tears because from what I see, he's doing fine without me. 

I Think

I think--I think when it's all over, It just comes back in flashes, you know? It's like a kaleidoscope of memories. It just all comes back. But he never does. I think part of me knew the second I saw him that this would happen. It's not really anything he said or anything he did, It was the feeling that came along with it. And the crazy thing is I don't know if I'm ever gonna feel that way again. 

But I don't know if I should.

I knew his world moved too fast and burned too bright. But I just thought, how can the devil be pulling you toward someone who looks so much like an angel when he smiles at you? Maybe he knew that when he saw me.

I guess I just lost my balance.

I think that the worst part of it all wasn't losing him.

It was losing me.

  I knew you were trouble- Taylor S.

yeahh, I don't know why but no matter what he did that makes me hurt I still love him. maybe I just lose my mind. Even everyone keep telling me, we don't belong together. I just can't help myself.

I'm just a fool to love a fool like you..

I risk my heart and I set it on him, but then everything turns out so confusing and it's do hurt me. it hurts because it mattered. who knew that love was so cruel and it's even painful when you waited so long for someone to come, and you though he could be the one to save you. I never though I was fell so hard for him. it's not his fault  and I'm not to blame anyone. to think he'll be true~ I'm just a fool. I said that I don't care. I'd walk away whatever and I tell myself 'I'm okay'. but i'ts not true. It's just an excuse to get up and move on, for holding on to something that is never going to happen. 

Often we say goodbye to the person we love without wanting to. thought that doesn't meant that we've stopped loving them or we stopped to care. sometimes goodbye is just a painful way to say 'I Love You'.. 

they said if you love someone, you should have set them free.. 

and i will be strong even if it all goes wrong.

  

I love him, even when I hate him. 

maybe I'm just a fool~ a fool to love a fool like you..