Kotobian Tadau Tagazo Do Kaamatan

In the midst of every year, Borneo holds the most important eve that has been carried from generations which is Kaamatan Day. This event helds on every 30 - 31 of May every year.

One of a must do event during this festive is Unduk Ngadau Crown, where all the beautiful female of Kadazan Dusun tribes compete to be the Unduk Ngadau. The most beautiful and charming will be the winner, and receive the Unduk Ngadau title for one year before the next Kaamatan Day together with magnificent gifts.

This year is no exceptions, once again all the Kadazan Dusun beauty came forth claiming to be the best. There is no way to deny their beauty, all are winner actually but there must be a winner in every race. 

So for this year winner, will be known by tonight and will be update soon on this blog. 

Original source: Dusun Tribes

Flashback

I hate it when I'm getting a flashback from the moments I don't want to remember. It's really torturing. There's a memory that we don't want to forget but we don't want to remember either. why it is so complicated.. 

whatever.. I'm really excited actually because next week is mid-term Holiday. Can't wait for it. Finally I can go for some vacation, some where far away from my home-town. 

Don't make a girl upset..

Don't make a girl upset.

I know that guys have feelings too, but once a girl is upset, it’s like hell for her. The way she handles things is by going through all these tears and by giving herself all this pain she doesn’t deserve. The thing about girls is that they can get affected so much, by something so little. When a girl is upset, she’ll try to hide her feelings. She’ll try to make herself seem happy, when really, she’s breaking down on the inside.

If only memories were easy to forget..

Time does not heal. It simply blurs out memories you’ve stored. Your brain stores these things because they help comfort you. Sometimes even fill in voids you start to develop. However, as time passes by; details, words and moments begin to fade away. All time really does, is help you to forget how that person once made you feel. Forgetting means to inadvertently neglect. Healing means to alleviate distress or anguish. There is no relation between the two.

If only memories were easy to forget, then life would be so much easier.

The Problem with the SOCIETY..

The Problem with the SOCIETY.. are, they never get SATISFIED with who you are.. They always find a away to bring you down. Be happy, not because everything is good, but because you can see the good side of everything.

• society: Everyone's beautiful.
• society: Don't eat though, you don't want to get fat.
• society: You don't eat? Anorexic freak!
• society: You're a size 4? You're supposed to be a size 0!
• society: You're an A cup? What are you, 8?
• society: You're a C cup? That's my mums size.
• society: You had sex?! Slut!
• society: You haven't had sex? Hah, you're frigid!
• society: You don't think you're pretty? Attention seeker!
• society: You think you're pretty? Conceited much?
• society: You believe in gay rights? Homo!
• society: You don't believe in gay rights? Homophobic dickhead!
• society: You're depressed? Attention seeker!
• society: You cut yourself? Still attention seeking!
• society: You can't go on? How much attention do you want?! 

Happy Mother's Day, May 13 2012

I know It's been a few days after the Mother's Day but It's never too late for me to wish Happy Mother's Day to my Mom.

To be honest, not just like most of the people out there, we don't really close, as a daughter-Mother relationship. I don't know why. We didn't talk too much, not because we're having a problem. It's just I don't really comfortable to tell her about my life. She never ask me about my it, how my school that day, or anything. I know, 'Mom' is the person who is the closest to you but for some reason, I didn't feel so. It's makes me upset sometimes. I thought she will understand me, as a grown teenager. I thought she will listen to me whenever I talk to her. But I guess at this age, everything is different. 

I don't know when it's turn out to be like that. From what I remember, we used to be so close back on my childhood years. When I was in primary school, my mother, she was my everything. I don't believe in anyone other than her. But now, everything change. I feel more comfortable to talk about my personal life with my best-friend. I don't know why but they understand me better. Maybe it is because we had experience the same things and they just like me, a naive teenager. I don't blame her or anyone. I know everybody must experience the same situation. 

Despite everything, I always LOVE my Mom. No one can replace her in my heart. I don't really good at showing my feelings and yes, I may not like her all the time, but I LOVE her always since the day I was born until the day I die. Thank you for everything mom, for all your sacrifices. 

PARIS: MY INSPIRATION

People will never understand why and I never expect them to understand but Paris will always be my Inspiration. I always dreaming to be here someday. My friend and I have made this promise to visit Paris together, someday, and I hope this dream will bring us together for a better future. The only reason why I have to be strong is to achieve my dream to be in Paris and not only that I also dream to travel the world to visit the Holy Land, Jerusalem, Rome and I also hope I can Visit London, New York, and so many other awesome places in the world. I believe It'll come true. I'm Obsess with PARIS..

Once again..

Okay once again my heart broke into pieces. heyy, why everything seems doesn't fit for me, why is that? Why everyone rejected me. Palui betul. UPU pun tida dapat juga. Balik-balik saya dikecewakan. So maybe, memang masuk Form6 seja lah neh. maybe sana lah seja tempat yang terima saya seadanya T.T. The truth is, I'm sick of people telling me ''It's okay, maybe it wasn't meant for you.  It's okay, maybe there's something better for you. Bukan rezeki kau kali'', and all I can say is ''It's okay. I'm okay. Maybe it's not my luck this time''. Yalah kan, apa lagi mau cakap. 

Hurm, so that's it. Sometimes, you can't have everything you wish for even you really want them. Sometimes, things doesn't go according to what you've plan. You just need a little patient and God will show you his way. I wonder, what else can go wrong..

Emotionless..

p/s: pick one of this ingredients, the one you need the most right now.

Emotionless

Have you ever had that feeling? When nothing feels right and nothing excites you anymore. Everything you hear and everyone around you makes you feel depressed. You feel trapped inside your own emotions and there seems to be no way out, but you don’t even know the reason for this sudden sadness. You feel a disconnection between you and all of your close ones. And you think you just want to be left alone, by yourself. Yeah, I hate those days.

I can't live without it..

My laptop is damage again and I'm really sad. Before this it's used to be my companion every time i get bored. And when it's gone, I don't know what else to do. Hilang arah tuju neh. I don't know how to move on with my life. Can you believe it ? hemm. Truly, addicted to this thing called ''INTERNET''. It's bad isn't it. It's okay, most people did the same. I just feel bored, that's why. Actually, I'm scared. I'm scared if My Laptop can't be fixed anymore. There's so much things i put on it, my picture. Everything I've been worked for 2 years is in it. I don't know what to do. Hopefully, still can be fixed lah. My laptop is the first thing I ever had that is too precious to me. A gift from my mom for my PMR's exam last 2 years. Get well soon, Lappy. 

It's okay, perhaps it's not for me.

April 2012, tinggal kenangan.

30 April 2012, keluar keputusan senarai panggilan temuduga for yang maktab (IPG) tuh. Unfortunately, I'm not qualify. A little upset actually, b'coz I'm really hoping that I'll get it. It's like my whole dreams tumbling down, crush and broken into pieces, for some reason. Maybe I'm expecting too much and to be honest I'm not okay. I don't get it. WHY? It's really pissed me off when someone who  actually don't really care about it, but then get the interview, I mean the opportunity that most people hoping to get it and he/she (the lucky one) didn't appreciate it. Hey dude, SCREW you !

Never-mind. Maybe it's wasn't the right for me. Maybe i need some luck, a 4 clover leaves perhaps. hahah. I don't know. So now, tunggu yang UPU lagi. Harap ada lah sangkut mana-mana. Sementara or maybe permanently, masuk form6 lah neh. But I don't really interest with form6 bah, too bad I don't have any choice. Daripada buang masa, bagus masuk dulu. And, bad news class Science lagi. Shit betul. I'm really sad actually because my close friend (classmate) masuk Matrix.  Tiada sudah kawan neh. ehmm. Entah lah macam mana lah kesudahan saya neh nanti.