I'm just a fool to love a fool like you..

I risk my heart and I set it on him, but then everything turns out so confusing and it's do hurt me. it hurts because it mattered. who knew that love was so cruel and it's even painful when you waited so long for someone to come, and you though he could be the one to save you. I never though I was fell so hard for him. it's not his fault  and I'm not to blame anyone. to think he'll be true~ I'm just a fool. I said that I don't care. I'd walk away whatever and I tell myself 'I'm okay'. but i'ts not true. It's just an excuse to get up and move on, for holding on to something that is never going to happen. 

Often we say goodbye to the person we love without wanting to. thought that doesn't meant that we've stopped loving them or we stopped to care. sometimes goodbye is just a painful way to say 'I Love You'.. 

they said if you love someone, you should have set them free.. 

and i will be strong even if it all goes wrong.

  

I love him, even when I hate him. 

maybe I'm just a fool~ a fool to love a fool like you..

Risk your heart..

I was told not to hurt the heart of whom I love so much. But when I was so busy taking care of that heart, I never noticed that my own heart was slowly dying.

But I guess, the worst regret we can have in life is not for the wrong things we did, but for the right things we could have done but we never did. Maybe that how it works. Sometimes you gotta risk your heart to get what you really desire. At least, you know that some day you won't have anything to be regret for. 

2012, half over..

My exam is over. And somehow, I don't seem to feel anything. I don't feel happy, excited nor neither sad and I don't know why. I know I should feel something but for some reason I can't seem to feel anything. The feeling, how to describe? urghh, just like water, its taste neutral. can you imagine? 

forget it. hmm, have you realize that it's almost December. The end of the year. And just like that, 2012 is half over. With everything that happen to me; I've met some new friends, have a crush, met a guy, falling in love, have a heartbreak, move on and so on. I can't believe I've experience it all and yet I still manage to survive. 

I know this is just the beginning..

Goodbye October, Hello Again November..

It's already November. wow, can you believe it? how fast the time could be. It's just like when you blink your eyes and October already ends. hmmm. November, don't let me down, okay :)

I've been busy lately, with my 1st term exam which is begin today and also there's so many things came up lately. I don't know why but it seems like there's too much trouble get in my way. 

Anyway, just wish me luck guys. Will be come back soon, updating more interesting story. So sorry, if my post is not interesting as before but I'll promise after all this matter ends, I'll be back. xoxo.